Written on March 6th, 2018

I like to play the victim
it’s an easy role to embrace
it’s more comfortable to shoulder the weight of baggage
than accept my part of the blame

have I been hurt? of course
just not enough to warrant this retreat
because I have stepped on just as many toes
as feet have stomped on me

I keeping feeling small, not because I’ve been shrunk
but because I’m too weak
to speak, own, and grow up

the first step is acknowledgement
but I have to let that breed change

someday I won’t be the victim
someday I won’t bear this shame