Things to Live For

I never really noticed how much certain things mean to me, until recently. I’ve been having a bit of a scare with one of my best friends in the past few days; there’s something going on with her kidneys. I guess it’s along the lines that they’re not processing protein correctly, but we don’t know the details yet.

She’ll be having a biopsy on Thursday, and the results will come three or four days after that. There’s a couple of things it could be, but I don’t even want to hear anything until everyone is certain.

I think I’m almost as scared as she is. This whole situation isn’t fun for anybody; I know it’s really hard on her physically and mentally, what with worrying and fretting and swelling and pain. I just hate it. I want everything to be okay so badly, it’s like a constant stomachache.

I don’t know if this friend knows exactly what she means to me. I drifted from her a bit in the past year; it was my fault, not hers, and I regret and admit that now. It was just a middle school phase—trying out new things, making new friends. But I realized: no one else I met could stand up to her.

She’s amazing, that’s just it. Like my best friend Sam, who moved to Texas two summers ago… she’s just great.

I know I can trust her with anything. Absolutely anything. And I know she’ll always be there for me. One of her other friends is a person that I sort of clash with, so to speak. Somehow, she’s managed to stay good friends with both of us, and I love it.

I’m not afraid of loosing her; I know she’ll never leave. The thought of her betraying me is so strange, it’s like imagining a poor Bill Gates or a dumb Einstein. The point is: she’s the best friend anyone could ever want, and I haven’t told her that. I want to apologize for drifting from her last year, and I want to tell her how much I love her.

And most importantly, right now, I want my prayers to be answered with yes, and for everything to turn out okay with her.

Alligator of Doom ♥, if you’re reading this… you’re strong. You’re beautiful. You’re amazing. Hang in there, I love you. :’)

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