Written on March 12th, 2018

it hurts me to hurt you.

you don’t have to believe me
tidal wave pain deafens ears — I know
but I need to say it anyway

there is joy in finding myself
but I take no happiness in leaving
maybe the truth sets us free

or maybe it just breaks our hearts

I should have known long ago
but I drink denial like lemonade
so sweet until it ruins your teeth

and by then it’s too late

I’ve stolen from you
five years and so many mistakes
I’m sorry for my greediness

I hope you don’t think it was a waste

maybe nothing will ever heal us
this mess is endless miles wide
but I believe in the sunrise

even if clouds hide it from our eyes