Written on May 9th, 2016

when you feel your voice rising in volume
you cringe
wishing you could take back the laugh
too loud, too fast, too weird
you want to recede into the background
at the same time you want to explain to everyone why you are the way you are

you are so non-confrontational
that your life has become an exercise of watering yourself down
so that others can feel bright
but when someone notices your light, too
you are seasoned at the art of denial

if you talk too much
or believe too strongly
or push too hard
you will be left unwanted
and it’s something that you’ve felt before

you can’t be too smart,
too loud,
too passionate or too strange

sometimes you think it’s best
to be nothing
at all